Updated request in one line: I’m requesting prayers for full complete graceful healing of my just-broken toes, and for divine, providential full healing of a large number of other long present, entangled, difficult issues.
Yesterday - after my original post - I broke two toes from a fall in the shower. I was twisted sideways with one foot up on the bathtub rim (combination tub/shower) to try to get a better angle of water to my lower back. I slipped and my full weight landed diagonally on the smallest toes on one side.
Emergency room xray showed the toes are both broken. No attempt at setting them from sticking out at a crazy angle. They were taped to adjacent toe and even getting this required an argument with the hospital staffer. Crutches were provided and good luck figuring them out, wide sandal with velcro straps, here’s a written tylenol Rx, no pain pills for you now, here’s a list of relevant specialists within the county (of six million, so I don't know if any are in my area), and sent on my way. A fellow patient very kindly offered me a ride home. Would have been an agonized half day’s trip back by long walks to & from & between buses.
Closest kind person in my life is a long distance away. I have no doctor or pharmacy. These are among the issues I originally asked for prayer about, that still continue.
There’s a tangle of long term tragic loss, unresolved health issues, problematic housing, social isolation, career meltdown and financial catastrophe, abuse recovery, and grief recovery issues. These issues are entangled with each other, and mostly stagnant for a long, long time.
Much seems to be related to family of origin abuse, often cult related. (Parents were in it before I was born. I never had a choice in this life about being raised in it.) Including things I discovered just a few weeks ago were not just unfair, but were felonies. If anyone had known, my parents could have lost custody of me and been imprisoned for much of my childhood. But nobody had any idea. I believe at least some of what I face is some kind of generational or transpersonal curse affecting multiple family members, not just my own physical experiences.
I am taking what baby steps I can see towards improvement, in a setting where I usually can’t get adequate sleep or nutrition. I'm asking for prayer now because while I've had some life successs in the past, my own efforts have not been enough against overwhelming storms of troubles for some time now.
I don’t have a car. I’ve always walked lots and lots. So I will need to learn how to get myself to the relevant bus stops I use - half a mile and a mile away - on crutches. But not today. Resting at home today and likely next few days.
Will return to the conversation when feeling better than right now.
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
timeasmymeasure
Revised prayer request - incl broken toes healing - from Christopher from California
Date: 2023-10-11 06:20 pm (UTC)Yesterday - after my original post - I broke two toes from a fall in the shower. I was twisted sideways with one foot up on the bathtub rim (combination tub/shower) to try to get a better angle of water to my lower back. I slipped and my full weight landed diagonally on the smallest toes on one side.
Emergency room xray showed the toes are both broken. No attempt at setting them from sticking out at a crazy angle. They were taped to adjacent toe and even getting this required an argument with the hospital staffer. Crutches were provided and good luck figuring them out, wide sandal with velcro straps, here’s a written tylenol Rx, no pain pills for you now, here’s a list of relevant specialists within the county (of six million, so I don't know if any are in my area), and sent on my way. A fellow patient very kindly offered me a ride home. Would have been an agonized half day’s trip back by long walks to & from & between buses.
Closest kind person in my life is a long distance away. I have no doctor or pharmacy. These are among the issues I originally asked for prayer about, that still continue.
There’s a tangle of long term tragic loss, unresolved health issues, problematic housing, social isolation, career meltdown and financial catastrophe, abuse recovery, and grief recovery issues. These issues are entangled with each other, and mostly stagnant for a long, long time.
Much seems to be related to family of origin abuse, often cult related. (Parents were in it before I was born. I never had a choice in this life about being raised in it.) Including things I discovered just a few weeks ago were not just unfair, but were felonies. If anyone had known, my parents could have lost custody of me and been imprisoned for much of my childhood. But nobody had any idea. I believe at least some of what I face is some kind of generational or transpersonal curse affecting multiple family members, not just my own physical experiences.
I am taking what baby steps I can see towards improvement, in a setting where I usually can’t get adequate sleep or nutrition. I'm asking for prayer now because while I've had some life successs in the past, my own efforts have not been enough against overwhelming storms of troubles for some time now.
I don’t have a car. I’ve always walked lots and lots. So I will need to learn how to get myself to the relevant bus stops I use - half a mile and a mile away - on crutches. But not today. Resting at home today and likely next few days.
Will return to the conversation when feeling better than right now.